Well. It's been eight months today since my last post. Not much has changed, to be truthful. What's the same?
I still work at the bank.
I still have my own car.
I still enjoy dancing games.
I still think coffee tastes better white.
I still hate waking up in the morning.
I still wake up every morning anyway.
I still spend way too much time on the computer.
I still learn new things about programming every day.
I still wish I didn't have to deal with my mom.
I still severely lack self-control.
I still play some video games that I don't think I should.
I still believe I'm overweight.
I still mess up, I still self-loathe, I still get over it.
I still put faith in Matthew 6:33.
As you can see, most things in my life have remained stasis. So then, you ask, what has changed?
I've lost ten pounds since last month (vegan).
I've lost an organ.
I've lost touch with reality from time to time.
I've lost friends.
I've lost the notion that suffering is the enemy.
I've lost the belief that satisfying myself is most important.
And all of this, for what?
I sometimes forget my past.
I sometimes have peace of mind.
I sometimes appreciate what I have.
I always have a hope for the future.
Is it worth it? Yes. Ask me why.